“A pretentious, showy life is an empty life; a plain and simple life is a full life.”
Proverbs 13:7 MSG
Day 3 of 40: My life right now is pretty “plain and simple” but it doesn’t feel very full.
The driving principle of my life has changed over the years. BC – it was all about me… success, money. I can remember riding my motorcycle through Beverly Hills thinking “one day one of these houses will be mine.” At the time, I was out of work, a stranger in a strange land – Southern California.
AD – it was about bringing people into a living relationship with Christ. But it was also about “competence.”
My personality tests out as an INTJ (Myers Briggs) and people like me (there’s not a lot of us, only 1-2% of the population) value competence highly. We do not “suffer fools gladly” (2 Cor 11.19 KJV) And we do not make friends easily. We are “visionary leaders” – sometimes others catch the vision, and sometimes they don’t. We can accomplish great things, but we can also be pushy, driven, proud, stubborn and insensitive. Is it any wonder we don’t have huge Facebook followings?
We also learn from our mistakes, so that by the time I neared retirement… I was reasonably competent and the last couple of years of ministry were highly successful – as measured by changed lives and commitments to Christ.
But that was then and this is now. I’m retired and life has moved on. My life was never “pretentious and showy” (with one exception I can think of), nor has it ever been more “simple.” But I’m not feeling very fulfilled either.
That’s why I’m re-reading the Purpose Driven Life. I’m seeking that promised place of “perfect peace” for those who trust God. And writing this blog is an opportunity to process it all.